Byron Henderson - Adolescence II lyrics
[Byron Henderson - Adolescence II lyrics]
May my angel protect me
May the Devil neglect me
May the Heavens accept me
You can be anything in this
World that you want, Except for my downfall
That’s my job Laughs
With friends like these, who needs enemies?
I’m entering an industry
Objective is get money to
Justify evil tendencies envious schemes
They probably dream of me under guillotines
If human me is drowning
Bianca and Nay will be his wings
Insomnia stricken, eyes forever stay open
Hallucinating old friends
Promises they’ve broken no rivals to idolize
Less I look in the mirror into my soul
Through my idle eyes
Two Byron’s will now collide
And when the mistakes haunt you, face karma
Take it all
Some’ll spring to an opportunity
Can’t wait to see you fall
F that, I dream to paint that house red
To them I’m a threat
You can bet, like that suit
And tie that you’re wearing
I’m at your neck
Yeah, I’m on your head forever
And just because God is blessing me
You must have lost your mind if
You think he’s immune to questioning
To some, I seem reckless
To others I give hope
Most didn’t get the message I’m
A little bit of both
The same reason people fail to realize
The saints are the sinners
That’s the reason you see heaters out
Even though it ain’t winter
Too many people went from here
For me to enemies
And even more than them have
Probably thought of ending me
Even in my darkest days, fans cheer for me
That’s why I’m praying for the day
I make it in this industry
Cause Rina told me there’d be days like this
Am I human or a rapper
Ain’t no way around this
I’m the youngest of three
Was always the one they doubted
Birthing a hunger in me
No need to wonder about it
Reputation built around me by
People without a clue
Imagine rapping as a child to have
People look down on you
Overlook me as a kid lacking
A grasp on reality
But what you’re seeing now is that same kid
No actually, The person you see now is
A person without a fear
Dispersing across the Earth
While I work to apply them here
See along the way
I used to hope to uplift the city
But I noticed when success came
People started to envy me
Even with common enemies
One of my greatest fears, the
Day I’m no longer helpful, But detrimental
As years go by
I grow aware of my family’s apparent split
Divided, lacking knowledge that
Byron even exists i know
My reclusiveness might have pushed you away
Or maybe I ain’t trust you enough
Not to judge what I say
The usual habitual rudeness you
Choose to display
Never once altered my love for you
But you can relate i often wonder
Should I be ashamed my
Family barely knows me?
Is it me to blame for Tony’s death?
The reason that I hold these memories of pain
Or is it me that holds
It all together like glue?
As much I hate to admit it, man
It’s probably true
I have enough pressure with rapping
Knowing that you ain’t believe in me
But when I dropped "The Minimum", boom!
So when I never mention you in a song
And you wonder why?
It’s not because I don’t love you
Or hope that you’re
Satisfied with subliminals
Reality is that my friends carry me
And if I fall from grace
Then it’ll be them catching me
It’s all coming back to me
As I look in this mirror
I fear that you take this personal on
The day that you hear it
I fear I develop pride
As my humbleness disappears
And the love that we had inside
It all dies cause of these lyrics
I fear that we missed out on
Each other cause of these arguments
I fear that I’m losing myself and
That played a part in it
I fear that I miss out on my
Friends, cause I spazz out about you
Then lash out on them
Don’t want a part of it
Maybe if I would talk then these
Problems would never start again
Maybe I’ll make it worse and I’m
Better off with you arguing
Maybe my love for you isn’t good
Enough and it’s causing this
Maybe it’s all for nothing
My adolescence is darkening not a saint
Just human with flaws that are deep rooted
A martyr to be soon
And that’s all between me and you
Because often
I feel guilty like you don’t know me at all
I’m a mystery
But I’m numb and this mirror just told it all
The resentment and what’s to come if
I live this way going forward
No, I won’t ever pretend I’m content
Or succumb to these feelings
Cementing that you lost me because
I’m no longer here i’m reckless
But still hopeful to know I
No longer fear a thing
No I don’t feel a thing
You’ll never feel my pain
My love for you I think will
Really be the end of me
That I’m alive is something that
I won’t pretend to be
My best friends think I’m worrisome
And fear for me an open letter to the people
Near and dear to me
Cause Rina told me there’d be days like
This where I feel I’m going crazy
Ain’t no way around this
Ain’t no way around this