Byron Henderson - TO LIVE, TO DIE. lyrics

Ayo, I heard the Devil's calling, oh
You're looking for me?
Because I know death is certain
And it's looking in threes i'm on a roll
Before I commit suicide, lives will be taken
But paying my dues is taking
A toll on the kid
I'm staring at old pictures and I
Feel it in my soul
It's giving me power that I've never known
Gotta go just know, you have a heart of gold
Thank you for being there for me
When I needed it the most

Thoughts rather vindictive
Four walls surround me
You paint the pictures
So vulgar how we listen
Forget our downfall, and cloud our
Minds with temptation, fear, and ammunition
Vision’s blurred, the mission is aborted
Feelings hurt
Misery has distorted everything that we love
Frustrated by all means, because we just

Shine like blood diamonds
And grow like roses from nothing
It’s timeless
But we grow closest, for what if
Her mindset’s to keep us hopeless
But loving and digest depression
Emotions are flooded with hatred
Russian roulette with my life, you take it
Not a single regret
But I’d like to waste no more time
If it’s God’s aim, I’ll
Take a speeding bullet, He can pull it
Meaning we survive pain
But it’s every day if I pull
It and bullets don’t work
She would tell me that if it doesn’t kill me
It won’t hurt
But it’s killing me when I feel the
Need to hop over that counter top
Like the killer I’m trying not to be
No worse than the moment I figure
Out that it’s me or you
Visibly wearing you down
Sweetie you see it too
Sympathy been dead, I tell her I needed truth
We’re losing ourselves
Look around if you needed proof
Tell her she can’t relate to my misery
I ain’t what she pretend to be
Last thing I need is demons that pity me
She is the enemy, when I look at Kels
It’s empathy
We gon be alright, cause I believe in you
Ain’t no fear in me
Woman you better kill me, or take this gun
Cause you gon have to
Nothing here can make me numb
You ain’t that good
My only worry left is Kelsey, only person
You could ever separate me from, Whoa

Four walls surround me, she painted pictures
Only two choices, live or die with it
If I live, I might have to lose you
If I die, then I have to lose two

If you die, then I have to lose three
If I lose you, I have to lose me
If I lose me, then Lucy has us
No loyalty, love, peace, no trust
No loyalty, love, peace, no trust

Ayo, I heard God's calling, oh
You're looking for me
Because I know death is certain
So I'm looking for peace
To no surprise, all I see is you, static
You taught me simple philosophy
I wanted to be death
But you gave me a reason not to be
Thought I ain't want to just bounce
See you on the flip side
Right after I dismount
You'll always be my everything
So if this truly meant the end of me
I'll do it all for you so
You can have your happy ending, Peace