Byron Henderson - Adolescence lyrics

I had a dream that I woke up dead
Constantly stressing as to whether
All my hope’s misled
Sidetracked after realizing we both just bled
Cold sweating
Watching your messages go unread
As I hear your laughter, it hit me
Never knowing what happened
I’m second guessing my decision to
Go forward with rapping
Love was secondary, or maybe I was afraid
Maybe I didn’t want to lose you
And was foolish in ways
Uncontrollable due to circumstances proven
Portrayed by older uncles as a lesson not to
Use you or sway between different women
Maybe I’m being too cautious
Maybe it never dawned never dating
Too was a loss
And as I reminisce on mistakes
That’ll hinder my vision
Intuition displaying every single chance
I was given like all this other drama
That’s something I couldn’t stomach
But with 99 problems
I always kept it 100 for you
Lately, I’ve been hearing a lot of
Things that I don’t agree with
Basically the drama’s a product of
People I don’t believe in
Maybe this is why all the gossip
Surrounding me is a secret
(I don’t even know why this is bothering me)

Instead of fighting the rumors
And diversions of many
I’m thinking whether I’d be proud to
Be a virgin at twenty
Cause I’m my own person
But people are looking at me
And with the damage that’s been done
You’ll see a stem in the street
So if I’m different
Then keep your attention off me
I’d rather carve a path and
Watch you dig a ditch
Because your favorite verse is costly
Love or lust, adolescence put in perspective
Fortunately, I was influenced not
To be reckless that’s off rip
Our goal is defeat the gutter
Then feed the gutter
Our souls will make the reaper
Stutter with this off switch
Because that’s all I ever needed
The physical presence of a woman’s
The form of a demon
Silhouettes of us dancing to the
Sound of an echo
Better known as rumors dispersing from
These clowns in falsetto
Now let your thoughts linger for a moment
Cause let’s be honest
There’s no breaking us if you ain’t notice
And that’s a promise

You made a great point when you
Brought up how I seemingly
Never rap about what makes me
Happy these people, my fans
And even people who aren't
Fans really may think I’m always angry um
I’ll explain it this way i’m
Happy with my life, but I’m not
Happy with where the world is
And where it’s heading i kind of feel
Like the world it'self is bigger
Than just my life which is why
I only speak on mostly negative
Experiences people need to learn from them
And refrain from making the exact same
Mistakes that we’ve been making since forever
I know it's human nature, But sheesh