Byron Henderson - Am I Wrong? lyrics

Sixteen reasons I wanted a better life
But I’ll never ask you
Because parents that never
Fight have another way to be cancerous
Always

Cyphers at seventeen
Never liked them but people
Fiend for excitement
It’s filling voids and it might
Just be what I need
To ignite my cerebellum tonight
In honor of we
And I might just be on my own
But I vow to never forget who would
Help me fight off my demons
If there was ever a moment
That I could never achieve
It was saving you from my downfall
Cause you would look at me and then
Ask what I’m looking down for
I’d say "That’s what I see" am I wrong?
Some of us wither away as I speak
I mean we could have had it all like Adele
Rolling way in the deep
A ton of mistakes being made every week that
A bundle of money can never change
Staying asleep was the biggest
And lately I noticed you were praying
Just to keep it up
But the reaper was playing for keeps
You were vulnerable
And all he did is pray on the weak
I wasn’t braced for that impact
It all went black
Began changing again, no longer in tact
I’d bend backwards in fact I’d kill if it
Meant you would be out of harm’s way
So you’ll never see me
Pretend that I’m perfect
I put my life in these verses
I go through too much not to
That’s why losing you was colossal
I don’t know who to blame
I know you had demons too
Though you did make a decision
Your man gave you a reason to
Acting irrational
For every beautiful memory
There’s a tragic one
And if I wasn’t afraid, this wouldn’t happen
But you were the person that gave
Me a reason not to be
Guess overwhelming depression’s enough
To flatten us whether a beautiful smile or a
Look of sadness from you
I always saw you for everything
You could ever be more than my best friend
More like a better me you can’t die

We first met you in ’09 at Discount Zone
Remember those gun shots?
Abrupt stop to a freestyle
Session back on Athania
A couple strays piercing the fence
Of that repair shop
Exactly where Marina and I
Could have been laying
A million reasons to die, one to live
But recently
I’m contemplating everything I had to give
You ran into us as we peeked
Making sure the coast was clear
Even had the nerve to speak
But no respect towards my dear beloved friend
I wasn’t feeling your intentions
As I’m pulling her behind me
For a kid, I wasn’t showing much fear
"Don’t ever disrespect this
Young lady again", Is what I said
You replied "My apologies"
Raising both of your hands
Maybe I’m overprotective
But of course you understand
You inquire us to help you on
A mission to advance in society
Sounds kind of sketchy as I
Glance over you again
I ask about your past, and your name
And with a look of shame
(My name is Tony, I live in the apartments
I’m seventeen, stay with my momma
But we ain’t talking
I know that y’all ain’t with the drama
But hear me out
I’m trying to be a better person
My father considered walking out to
Be the best option
So I’m looking for guidance
I noticed y’all together a lot
And I got a problem
He got my mom’s hooked on
Something that’s mad addictive
So I’ve been raising myself, if you’ve
Got any words of wisdom, I’ll take them)
For the next three months
We lend a helping hand
Teaching him morality, how to
Avoid jail time, Ect
We watched Tony slowly become a man
Never took credit
But were proud that we could help him
Put his mother in rehab
Reluctantly but boldly
I guess it was just too late
The same reason she OD’d
Never saw Tony again
But got news he was robbed
Received a round of applause with one hand
You were worth it

People always worry about me mentally
Oblivious to the scars
Affecting me physically
Or how I’m wired differently
Some call it baggage, I call it a dark past
And that’s why I’ve been documenting my life
To me, it’s history so tread softly
Never had a role model
But the dead taught me
You’re better off with no
Hollows in your head, Walking
So be a leader, don’t follow f a pledge
All these tragedies for more dollars
And the sad part is
I didn’t want to make it to this year
But I have a niece turning two this year
And part of me feels like I
Don’t spend enough time with her
I won’t lie, plenty of times are just blurs
My mind is in disarray
Cluttered with the thought
Of something missing
Wait, shudder as I start upon
A sheet of paper
To recall as much as I can imagine
I’m having trouble remembering something
That just happened
Flashbacks of a rose being rained on
I keep hearing everyone say love’s evil
Been restrained for a year
But I ain’t staying long
Because that’ll give me a reason
Never to love people
I meditate and think of why
I need a safe haven
And why I never look at her and say
"I love you"
Why don’t I look in the mirror and say
"I love me?" a beautiful ugly enough to
Make any trust skew so am I wrong since I’d
Never have a reason to
Believe without my best friend
Bleeding through her sleeve?
An immediate reprieve from whatever I
Was feeling that day word to the fake
I was nothing if not relatable
Loved ones won’t come back
Now that I’m capable
Did they love me back when
My choices were all unfavorable?
They left me to die when they were
The ones I would cater to
All while suffering from a disease that
Can do away with you, Whoa!
F it freaking stupid