Byron Henderson - DONE WITH THE WORLD II. lyrics

Haunted by the memories of you in this life
Man, I’ve met so many dudes
That were jealous of me
I’m trying to get it together and
Focus on doing what’s right
But I swear to God
I don’t even know what’s expected of me
NaharaH was the death of me
Life never meant less to me
Had to sit through your worst
While you just begged for the best of me
You made a mess of me
And honestly couldn’t care less
For me being trapped
Or the fact my dead best
Friend keeps texting me
It ain’t real, and I won’t fail
I’m taking my life back, and that’s destiny
I’ve got to go i’ve got to go

I see we're still killing each other, wait
Scratch that
Seems we ain't feeling each other, wait
Scratch that
See I've been a victim of struggle
I've been a victim
But doubled down on my mission
Yet trouble followed maliciously, bagbak
Pictures I paint are hollow like tips
That fill you with sorrow
Similar to what I spit cause
You gon feel it tomorrow
My plan A is my plan B
Still got some fight left, so tell
Death fore I bite dust
I'll be sure to be all I can be
It’s gun shot after gun shot
From where Heaven and Hades meet
The liquor and gun shops
Guarantee if you ain’t hit with a stray
Then your lungs stop they walk around blind
Lacking visual impairment
But there’s nowhere to run now
They want us to ignore the
Chem trails and every life
Lost to them's a solar flare to end trails
I remember years ago, I was back then twelve
People skiing down bunny slopes
Had to inhale, Wait
Even as a kid you were suicidal
You know that
You never had to say it's do or die though
Cause you would show that
But you’re sure that overdosing
On your thoughts
Ain't how you want to go out
That's why you’d look in the mirror
Like don't you hold back feelings
You were always a leader
The beat's a canvas
Whenever you spit, you paint Mona Lisa
The features damaged
They treat you like you're crazy
But some times you have to prove it
In order to show you're
Smart and you’re winning
You have to lose it how crucial was Rina?
How crucial is Aaliyah to your focus?
How crucial were Vale, Hali
Nay & Binky to your hope?
Or was it hopelessness
The former you never thought you would know
Even in Summer heat
Dudes you went to school with made it snow
As for your old friends, and the old you
You know, the Byron that would feel things
Real things
He even tried to conceal pain back in the day
They said it was weak to show
Masculinity's what you need to show
So hardest out as if I was the seed of John Q
Funny how fast all your past
Demons can find you
Ain't got a clue how y'all ain't got
A clue about my suicidal tendencies
And all I've got to do to prove
That you are not my enemy
Usually they say your success is
Normally based on perspective
When I'm spitting
I'm doing more than just venting
Respect comes as a blessing from peers
But how's it in your best interest
If you don't know their intentions?
Maybe my paranoia gets the best of me
Or maybe that's my conscience trying
To save me unexpectedly
Been locked away so long
No longer have a life expectancy
Kels, Aaliyah, Rina
What I see in them’s a better me
Say you get one moment in life to be great
But I’m living proof
You get as many moments as you can make
Never know how good your fortune is
Till you see the people you
Grew up with still
At the starting point like they don't exist
Ain't nothing but a bunch of
Drug abuse and homicide i mean
There's such a lack of peace
That even drama's tired if I had it
I would probably throw my pride aside
Tell my old friends I love them
Tell them Byron tried
I still feel as if I need
To have words with you a few times
Went Seth Rollins on the curb for you
In due time, if I ever cease to exist
And I perish the kid you cherished
Example of what these burdens do
Oh pardon me if you need me, just call on me
All these burdens
Wait up, I really meant demons are all I see
When I think of Kels and Aaliyah
Looking into a mirror, I see
Those two in every way
Every hue and every shade
They’re the yin to my yang
The good within the badness
I've got this old picture with
Val from Summer Bridge
But that was a burning bridge due
To battles that I was having
Imagine me sobered up that year
Without the baggage i mean Val
You ought to know I'm prone to self destruct
To think they think I only
Care about my selfish luck
But way back when we were friends
I had your back until the end
That’s ironic cause I ain't even
Trust myself with trust
I told y’all I would never succumb
Even if it came with consequences
Climbed out of that slump
With good intentions
That’s when I realized things would
Never be the same because I know who I love
But I barely feel a thing

For the love of the money? For the lust?
For the cars?
Listen, you ain’t gotta stunt, dawg
You ain’t gotta stunt, dawg
Nah, you ain’t gotta stunt, dawg

Not afraid of you just because
You have a gun, Dawg
You can shoot first, and you’ll feel like
A man up until your time comes, Dawg
Tell them I won’t last forever

This process helped me realize that people
Are borderline terrified to look
At themselves in the mirror they
Don’t like that odds are
They won’t like what they see when
I look in the- Hold on