Byron Henderson - ENDGAME. lyrics

It almost feels like this is kind of
My happy ending i think at some
Point, everyone comes to the realization that
They're running out of time so
Me being able to get this all out
Of my system before time was
Up was great for everyone to finally
Know what happened to me, And
Why it happened there's definitely a sigh of
Relief i don't have any regrets
Or anything it's just that sometimes I
Feel like I'm the only person
I know that didn't give up on myself
Or what I wanted to do
And to see a lot of these
Entertainers on the auction block
I don't know what to think of that

Mm yeah

Soon as I catch the vibe, hit the morgue up
I hear these records and catch the lies
Who got more guts, me or them
Leaving them petrified before they've
Met the sky
Kind of like Jess' ideas on life
I told her don't get involved
In these shady acts, My beloved
They shot her cousin
Now she wants her baby back
But she's Muslim
You rise above it or it brings you down
I feel your pain
But shame that I can't empathize
Been locked away a while
Living my life through a sinner's eyes
How many times can people count on me
Before they count me out this game
If I'm emotionally detached, how am I sane
Was holding you down for months
Yet now you say I've changed but dawg
I'd honestly be more concerned with
Why you stayed the same
Like, are you happy with your lifestyle
These people want you slain and
Degrees don't block bullets
They'll happily turn your lights out
I wonder how your cousin would feel
Seeing you lost in all this heartache
Like you no longer know love if it's real
You ask me how me "How did I
Deal?" with Marina, or Matt, or Tony
All that was it love, does it heal
I'm being honest, right
I didn't deal with it, it dealt with me
I would've been sober years ago if
It ate at me seldomly
It's the bringer of truth, whatever you do
Own it from the home of the brave
Where the brave'll remain homeless
Y'all question my sanity and my
Faith in your God
How tough is your skin when you lose
A friend and they brush you aside
I had abandonment issues
Let me take all the time I need
The numbness you get from drugs ain’t
The numbness I found in peace
Don't compare me to leaders
Don't compare me to my reflection
Believe that with every breath
You've been blessed with another lesson
Embezzlement, fraud, desolate thoughts
And insecurities stressing your heart
The message is brought to you
By your next of kin
Was never suited for family ties
They're throwing salt like
Yokozuna or Fujiwara
I'm back at their necks again
Crazy, I was stuck in Hades with
Friends that were Heaven sent
Whoever's sleeping on me
I'm here to wake you to death for them
Someone called me the best
They never heard of
I brought him in for a session
He unexpectedly became an accessory to murder
But ignore him
I feel I've gotta cause Jessica is hurting
The memories of holding 'em, in her hands
Got her walking round with stigmata
He got to see the pearly gates
And his killers get nada
That's the end game
The same girl thinking I went insane
She took a different path
We haven't spoken in years, dang
Peace of mind is so essential
Even if I wanted to
I ain't got the time to resent
You with everything on my mental
Pyromaniac with the flow, I admit it
How the saying go
I believe everybody is a critic
I'll say it slow
Ironic if you don't catch it
I'm the sickest
You ain't God and till that day
I'm afraid I'll have to dismiss it
Was never one for settling
Leave that to proud Americans that care about
The bruises on Rihanna more than veterans
Picture me rolling
You blink, your victory's stolen
These dudes become different people when
The mic is off i use my word to excel when
I speak you see the difference
Dudes are Microsoft
Spineless, I'll pick my teeth
With their vertebrae just
Cause I've got the right to floss
This the game that they see me in
All these different ingredients
Leave them geeked when they see me thin
Been gifted with this rapping
Ain't no telling when I will stop
It's crazy how the block that Wayne
Was talking bout is still hot
Back against the wall, the underdog
But still I morph until I'm dwarfing rappers
On my Shane Strickland, this that kill shot
Yeah, I show the real me
Still I've got them playing catch
Up to my shadow
Ain't no sense in trying to feel me
You're a man, but you're afraid to
Face your own internal battles
That's hereditary sheep in wolves clothing
Got my whole generation speaking chattel
Let's take it back to eighth grade
Been thinking bout it recently
Back to those vaccination shots
My mom called me over while conversing
With this woman she'd never met
Could tell easily
The way she called would've had
Y'all thinking she needed me this woman
She calls a girl over about my age
I look at her and know what I want to say
But the silence is deafening
I sigh and walk away cause all I see
Is what I used to be in her
I know one day it all changes
Her name was Tanisha
Though not a single word was said, I
Got the feeling that one day
I'd be thankful to meet her
A firm believer in fate, and destiny await's
Fast forward eight years later
Expecting me to break
Three months sober, I spoke with Tanisha
Giving us both a form of closure
That I'm sure that I needed
The whole world has gone mad
But I ignore it though we're
In a pool of sharks trapped in the dark and
The water just deepens
Cold world, ain't no need to tell me bout it
If you give a man a gun, he'll rob a bank
But give a man a bank
And he'll rob everybody
I'm a different breed
Was struggling to survive
But still let that girl depend on me
And that's the reason why I
Let Tanisha know my feelings
Please, people spend their
Lives thinking man
What good is drive when my tank's on E
Had to shake this negative energy
Once it found me pandemonium erupted
The world crumbled around me
I stood motionless
So much potential gone to waste
Felt myself shutting down for good
Or so I thought, I blinked once
Novelle was there for close embrace
Now it's all coming full
Circle, love or lust, Life or death
Either way, they all hurt you
When through friends like women go through
Men or men go through women
Always at each other's throats
Hard for me to tell the difference
Cause failure isn't fatal
But failure to change might be
My worst fear was Aaliyah ending
Up just like me they tried to write me off
And I looked to Kels for advice
Would you take the scenic route if
It meant for a better life
Or would you sacrifice integrity
For the money and
Fame if it meant after fifteen minutes
They would forget your name choose wisely
Cause trust me
I know peace of mind is costly
So many L's for that one big win
That's what it brought me
Since the people closest to me already feel
Like they've lost me to sobriety
It's got me reflecting on all my choices
Tread softly death is certain
It’s to the point where you
Know certain things won’t
Stop my people won’t stop killing each other
Cops won’t stop
Killing us, the school shootings
The unnecessary wars, The rapes won’t
Stop, the carelessness of the
Higher ups won’t stop
And the racism? Pfft people
Have such a need for hope that
They believe almost everything especially
If the person saying it is
Doing better than them, With
No clue what that person did to
Get ahead that’s the endgame
I remember Pac said the poor
Might eat the rich
And I agreed until I realized they
Were too busy eating each other

So as I was saying
The ramblings of a mad man can be
Very dangerous especially for
Those that listen right