Byron Henderson - JUMP (Beauty In The Beast) lyrics

Sometimes it’s too much for me
To see them like that
To see everyone in the house come home
And have that look on their face
You know the look
We all have our own issues, but when
The issues come from each other
That’s when it starts to affect me
That’s when we become just as
Divided as the outside world
That’s why I stick to my
Friends more often than not
But they’ll never know it’s this bad, ever

Wait a second, let me breathe for a minute
Inhale, exhale, couldn’t speak for minute
Yes well, couldn’t leave for a minute
Tired of being strong
Allow me to be weak for a minute
I won’t ever try to act hard
Sometimes, I just wish that
I could fast forward
Or maybe take a couple dozen steps backwards
I hope you guys don’t think
I’m coming at y’all but I just need to vent
And I can’t do it to you
Because you need to listen no interruptions
Cause you need to sense the urgency
In what you aren’t seeing
And I’m certainly the person you
Need to hear it from
For some reason, I try to play mediator
Just trying to keep the peace between us all
To no avail so I stop
Drop and roll through the
Smoke till it clears
I just hope you aren’t broken like I am
Numb to it all
I don’t even take precautions anymore
I just walk through the fire
Like a Phoenix when it’s
Rising from the ashes to the masses
Does it matter if you’re crying or I’m
Dying from the fact that we’re
Divided even more than when I’m trying
To attach a couple bandages
While damaging who I am to the point
Where it’s almost like I’m flying away
You wonder why I go to my friends
More and why I ain’t pray
No, it’s not because they meant more
Less animosity, tension
And I can sense more love and sincerity when
They vent towards me and my problems
More often than not
I feel as if I’m a mistake to you
Gotta be honest, If I can’t say it to your
Face without you all wreaking havoc
Then I’ll say it to this mic with every one
Of these polyps on the back of my tonsils
Even if it’s too big of a pill to swallow

I just hope you understand me
While I stand on the edge of this cliff
Looking back at you there’s no plan B
Too often
Y’all make me want to jump sometimes
Feel like you don’t know me
I will not pick sides
Just a few things hold me
Just a few things hold me
Just a few things hold me together
Just a few things hold me together

I hope the day never comes
Where I release this cause if I do
I’m sure I’ll be getting different looks
I’ll never have enough time to
Pick up the pieces
We’ll forever be on the same page
In different books
Maybe it was stupid of me to think my last
EP would get your attention
Like everyone elses sure, everyone felt it
But it doesn’t mean a thing if
What I say ain’t helping
Maybe you aren’t listening for the message
Maybe you’re in awe that it’s me
And you didn’t catch it
Maybe you don’t know me well enough to know
I’m talking to you on each record
About how my downfall could occur
To me any second
Or the reason I really became distant
From everyone I grew up with
It’s like they grew up
Quit life and you must sit back and watch it
I just sat back and learned not to
Screw up with drugs, the law
Or anything alkee related
I may be wired like an addict
But the habit has made me aware
Of the dangers I’m prone to
I remember the look I got when I told you
I remember specifically you asking
Why I never
Mention you but why on every song
I mention my friends and Aaliyah too
Well, they say the less you know
The better you feel
But if you want to know, then as always
I’ll keep it real with you
The things you say
The things you do make me feel
Like nothing when compared to you
I still love you, as much as I don’t say it
The proof is me telling the truth
You have as much to do with
My suicidal thoughts as Marina dying
That’s why I’m so attached to Aaliyah
Honestly the closest I’ll ever
Get to a daughter
You don’t know me as well as you thought
But you ought to know that ish

I just hope you understand me
While I stand on the edge of this cliff
Looking back at you there’s no plan B
Too often
Y’all make me want to jump sometimes
Feel like you don’t know me
I will not pick sides
Just a few things hold me
Just a few things hold me
Just a few things hold me together
Just a few things hold me together

I was on the phone with
Aaliyah one night, and um
She asked if she could tell
Me something of course, I said
Yes, not even knowing what I
Was walking into but, Just for
Her to ask, it had to be important she said
"I don’t have to force
Myself to be different around other people i
Like me and if they don’t
Then they don’t really have to
Be around me is that
Ok?" I was so happy because
She’s so young she’s six, But that’s
All she needs to know that’s
All she needs to know
Man then she fell asleep on me