Byron Henderson - THE GREAT ESCAPE. lyrics

Border in sight, yet so far away
Darker days will find me
Trust people less than my demons
Knowing they're just as grimy
Caution belongs to the wind
My heart is beneath the earth
Mind in the river stix
And society makes it even worse
Swimming for dear life, settle until I can't
Don't want to die, but fear life
Not sure if I can handle
Such a drastic change
Last verbal exchange was eye opening
I hope I rise and show
Every obstacle I'm golden
When the pain becomes a bit too
Much to manage for me
Knee to elbow, head in hands
I know it's damaging me
But you show me every time that
You ain't caring for me
You just need to be in control
And that ain't fair in the least
I want to leave you
But I dedicated all these years of my
Life to us and only us but there's no us
And that's just not right
Was loyal to the soil
But the soil was rotten
Called me baby every day
But killed my soul in the process
Take care of me when I'm sick, I know
When panic attacks will hit, I know
But that's the only time you make
Me feel like I exist
So what's the difference to you between
An afterthought and my interests though?
Nowhere for me to go
But people break and I'm getting close
I fear I leave and you just
Move on to the next, Yeah
I fear leaving and feeling
Like nothing's left, Yeah
I fear I waste my life and
Love on you and stress
I fear I never find myself again
To me that's worse than death

Yeah, yeah border in sight, yet so far away
Darker days behind me
Trust people less than my demons
Knowing they're just as grimy
Caution belongs to the wind, my
Heart in your grip, Mm
Mind in a marathon, honey
Pray I don't trip, Uh
Running for dear life
Bet on me if you gamble
Had to die to live life
I'm sure that I can handle
Such a drastic change
Last verbal exchange was eye opening
To no surprise
I run on faith because I'm hopeless
When my gut's telling me to rest up
Can't help but feel I've been bested
I move in silence like Tesla's
And your noise has left me restless
Can't afford the lies I'm left with
Mind your actions i'm an Aries
I was born for all this pressure
But that trust is dead and buried
So replace me, I don't do jealousy
Too careless, I'm too fearless, I'm over us
I flat-lined, you dipped out
And I'm too weary, Like whoa
How you turn your back on your backbone?
You got word that I'm getting better
So you catch yourself crawling back home
Like no love don't live here
Lost time that'll never be
Returned back to me
You belong where I let my thoughts die
Toxic forever bonds broke off
So take this pill to choke on
Add me and your mind to your losses
Border like Christ, I'm gon' cross it
Where temperatures drop and snow falls
I know it's breaking your heart
But just keep in mind, It's your fault
Patiently waiting for my other whole
Will they meet me halfway
Dang, guess I'll never know
Never felt good enough
Something both of us were never told
Let each other know
Dawg, hard to ever feel free
When I look in the mirror and my
Reflection barely even looks like me
Fox News yelling we're to blame
If you see an end, we don't see the same
C-c-cops yelling, "Gang, gang, gang!"
And when they're on the hunt
Bet we're the game

Manipulating insecurities only keeps me
For so long low self esteem
A ton of self doubt keeps
Me from saying so long am I good enough?
Maybe not for you
With the way you treat me so wrong
So uninspired, so done and tired
I can see the border, with my other whole
This war is over i'm so gone