Dependence - That Was the First Day It Rained, and It Never Rains Here lyrics

I think it's time that I stop pulling back
I think it's time that I stop redefining
Myself by something that I lack

I've been working with only one glass lung
And I can barely breathe
With all these cracks
I've distanced myself from everything
In order to be a little happy
I've distanced myself from everything
In order to be a little happy
But, if I'm not feeling
But if I'm not living
Am I happy? am I happy?

It's made
It's made me hollow to say the least
I couldn't hold on to her, or to her God
Not to her hands, or to her heart
I couldn't hold on to anything
I couldn't hold on to my everything



And I can still see her now
I still fall apart in her eyes
At least on the inside
And I can still see her now
In pictures and memories
And it's sad that something
Like that could die at least on the inside
You can still see it in my eyes

I wish I could have let her know
That I loved her so
That she was everything that I ever wanted
Or ever needed
But, you can't hold on to what isn't there
You can't even see it in the air
I hate how this isn't fair

Yeah, I couldn't reach my feelings
And I had to watch my whole life walk away
When she was leaving
I'm sick i'm sick, and this hurting
I'm sick i'm sick of seeing

That was the first day it rained
And it never rains here
That was the first day it rained
And it never rains here
That was the first day it rained
And it never rains here
That was the first day it rained
And it never rains here