Digital Faceless - Dysphoria lyrics

Been six weeks since I last slept
Six days since I last wept
Six years since I last dressed
Put a torch to my rats nest
I'm a mess I'm a wreck I'm depressed
Like it's cemetery bliss all again
Put these lacerations in my
Flesh it's my punishment
Make the same mistakes I'm never
Getting sick of it maybe I deserve this
I'm like adam with no eve
To tighten all my tourniquets
Trapped inside this trauma loop and
It only seems to worsen
I'm okay going for a divе
In a pit of needles
Look inside my eyеs see if you can
Find what's left of my innocence
In a sense, we all suffer just the same
Say it ain't so tell me that it's gonna
Be different this time
Did it to myself, pushed you all away
But you crawl back anyways
It's just never gonna be the same
I don't know why you
Wanna capture that again
Did it to myself, pushed you all away
But you crawl back anyways
It's just never gonna be the same
I don't know why you
Wanna capture that again
Cry for me cry for me
Pray that I'll die nicely
Lie to me lie to me that it's gonna be ok
But it's not and it never will
Let the blood spill
Let the color leave my body
I'm gon kill myself and they gon laugh at me
In my coffin wearing clown makeup
I'm just here for your entertainment

Still stuck with the same reputation
Holy shit, just let me lay, bitch
You should not kick someone who
Is already on the ground
I'm just nothing but a moron
With a colored mouth they tried to get me
Down but ironically enough
This action was not needed without any doubt
What I did instead is that I feeded them
With my class clown-ish silliness
Shit, another year that I regret
Except I make the assumptions
Myself in my head tears over tears
Slowly losing any motivation
Problems with relations over having patience
The risk of getting fake friends
I don't see it 'Cause nothing makes sense
Nothing in life makes sense
I'm getting my last chance but it
Seems like I cannot take it
Like I cannot take it, yuh
But yet I'm here, here with them school kids
Here with the ones who don't
Know I make music the truth is, f the truth
We all live in a lie no one cares about you
Nobody keeps an eagle eye
Seriously, nobody will solace you
Are we speaking? 'Cause there's
Nothing to argue
Nothing to notice you, nothing to pursue
You just gotta keep with the other
Ones so we accepting you you
Trust no fucking body, even yourself
No one interests your fucking mental health
The world is fucking cold
It needs some help for real
I guess it's really the time I got to heal
I guess it's really the time I got to heal
And you like "everything is alright
So what's the deal?"
Are you joking or what? 'Cause
This ain't a shitty joke
These fucking idiots are not
Welcome in my home

Mental destruction
I cannot get you out my mind
Can you feel it too? The same way that I do?
Your blood is dripping on the floor
And mine is dripping too
They mix up together so well
We are laying beside each others
I was not strong enough to save ourselves
I can see the anguish through your tears
I relive our memories in a split second
I regret not knowing how to
Tell you I love you but I was blind
My selfishness got tangled up
In my fucking ego i made you suffer as much
As these wounds that
You inflicted on yourself without
Telling me a word
You hid in silence you didn't want
To hear a single sound anymore
And when I held out my hand to you
We both fell with no hope
Of ever rising again
Covered in blood and swimming in the tears
If I were able to go back in time
If only your organs were inside of your body
I would have removed your fears
So that you would get up
So that only I would remain on the ground
Im losing all my senses
Everything around us is getting so dark
I don’t know where we are anymore fuck
The wound inside my guts is burning so bad
My hearing is not working anymore
Im slowly starting to leave my body
I cannot feel my hand holding yours anymore
We reascending to hell
Together we are no more