Joshua Lanuarii, Squiblers - elementary lyrics

Haven't been the same since that one Friday
Blocked up, nice touch, friends on MySpace
Nothin's special 'bout my school
In the tristate
Backed up, thinkin' bout my homies
A nice day
Movin' outta town was even enough, I had
Shitty moments,  that's evenly rough,  I know
Even family
 but that's how the cookie crumbles
I couldn't skate, I couldn't wait
Where is the dust? I'm
Parked outside with my homies for months, I
Spend the 305 musclin' up, well
All my bullies were evil and tough
School was winnin', so I had to give up, I
Go back to the summer of '13
Glass dragons with the dreams of 18
Nerf guns with the shooters of ray beams
Lost in my pasts so much, I'm shaking
All my friends say they're the same with me
Haven't been the same since elementary
Lost so much, I'm falling like a fiend
Judging all my options like I'm
Right behind a screen

I think I understand where you come from
I'm a dropout, but I'm not dumb
I used to get bullied all the time, yeah
Back in the years when I believed in Santa
Used to have a lot of friends in Atlanta
HP laptop and paranoia
I was only 12 and I hated myself
Had a lot of friends but I always felt lonely
Back of the bus, I felt like nobody knows me
Had a 3DS and the Pokémon X
Hoping that the reaper would visit me next
I used to have dreams where I was happy
Imagining that everybody else loved me
But here I am, sitting at my desk at four AM
Staring at a notebook, remembering my past
Suicide note, I thought that was my last
But here I am not
Just venting into a microphone
I feel like ET 'cause I'm dead
I wanna phone home