Lil Happy Lil Sad - Last Rhymes lyrics

How come when finding myself
In need of help always in the same hell
When I look down at my hands and they change
Change with my age but the view is so strange

Cause, I am the same same froze the brain
Just im expected to be anyway
Expected to play by the rules of
A game I don't know
And I don't like that thats why I won't stay

Leaving tonight for the last time
Inside this lyric my last primes
I tried understanding but can't lie
I can't understand why I can't find

Peace in this life like witting my rights
So switch when she smile and
See deep in my eyes
Sunroof is down trees warping by
Its hurtful to look at her thinking goodbye

Never gonna see you again
Im leaving you lonely forever in pain
Its gonna be the last time
Im making you hurt tho
Please, don't me mad at me babe

Im gonna find you again
In a new space the next phase
Where the stars seem to never end
Don't worry I will wait
Don't hold back your taste girl
You don't always need to be so brave

Love drowning in passive self pity
Been sitting with rope in my
Hands tryna end it
I hide like a roach and demand no one see me
Bias to send this wish someone
Would feel me for real

But asking too much when i heal
Copin with weed thousand dollars a deal
Rollin it up blowin up for
The steam that ive built
Pushing down how im feeling for years

My heart is in pain is yours aching too
Or is it just me always feeling blue
Not really sure if i fill my short shoes
In a life im not sure I can fit into

Money a fast car a bangin hoe
Using cool words i am proud to use
Im driving real fast down a crowded road
Making up lyrics that sittin
Too close to home

I don't wanna live no more thats the truth
But, I don't wanna die im
Too scared to lose you need you too soon
Live long ill wait for you