Lil Xtra - Alive lyrics

Come along if you feel me
Only feel alive when I’m doin'
Things that kill me when you dip, say
"what’s up?" to the real me
Chilling in the back, all black
Three blunts deep yeah
Come along if you feel me
Only feel alive when I’m doin'
Things that kill me
And drown the voices in my head
That never want me around

She said "I’m so done with you, I swear
It’s so hard to take you anywhere
You’re always pissed and that’s not fair
No, you won’t be missed if no one cares"
You push and push and push away
I pull and pull, but there you stay
I don’t believe you just need space
I’ll just fuck off and learn my place ay
You really hurt me and
It really felt deliberate
Trust turned to dust
So fuckin' inconsiderate
I’ve had enough to know that
My feelings are legitimate
Broken like my joints, so degenerate yeah
Belligerent, yeah I went and started that
Livin' with a purpose
I just want a part of that
And I’m about six weeks from a heart attack
'Cause 24 years got me
Feelin' like an artifact yeah

Come along if you feel me
Only feel alive when I’m doing
Things that kill me when you dip, say
"what’s up?" to the real me
Chilling in the back, all black
Three blunts deep yeah
Come along if you feel me
Only feel alive when I’m doing
Things that kill me
And drown the voices in my head
That never want me around

Ay, uh i guess I had a big year
Just a little bit of talent
With some big fears
All cheers out in Paris with my peers
Gettin' wasted on the street
Pros balling in the field, yeah
So why I still feel the dark passenger?
Digging through the scraps like a scavenger
Yeah just to keep my brain scattered
With the greatest fear of all
That nothing really matters
So I prepare for disaster
My head is intact but my
Heart has been shattered
Battered and bruised
Only used for this music
Knife in my back from my Juliet-Judas
Puff 'til my day has been brightened
My feelings are numb and my
Heart rate is heightened
Keep myself high with attention divided
So when death approaches
I will not be frightened

Come along if you feel me
Only feel alive when I’m doing
Things that kill me
And drown the voices in my head
That never want me around