Lil Xtra - Anxiety lyrics

Hold it in my heart
It's beating like it's coming
Through my chest panickin' again
I just can't seem to catch my
Fuckin' breath
Count to 10 but nothin's changin'
Thoughts are ragin' in my head
Every time I swear this is the last
Time I'll get out of bed

But you said I was on my own
I've never felt quite so alone
But this anxiety inside of me
Keeps pushing me ahead
Medication, all I need
It's just as bad as the disease
When I abide by my prescriptions
I keep wishin' I was dead

You are my hate you follow me
My only strength why can't you see?
You're my best friend my worst enemy
I can't live without you
But with you, I can't breathe

You're breakin' up
I barely hear you through the
Static on your phone i'll be fine
I just need time to heal
So please leave me alone
Panickin' again that anything you say
Might not be real that you never loved me
You just loved the way I made you feel

But you said I was someone else
You hate the way I hate myself
But this anxiety inside of me
It keeps me up at night
You want me and I want more
I jump and wash up on the shore
Now I've chosen
I'm broken from my whole fucking life

You are my hate you follow me
My only strength why can't you see?
You're my best friend my worst enemy
I can't live without you
But with you, I can't breathe

And I can't breathe and I can't breathe
You are my hate and I can't breathe
You follow me and I can't breathe
You are my hate and I can't breathe
You follow me and I can't breathe

(You are my hate) your god doesn't love me
(And I can't breathe)
Your god doesn't love me (You follow me)
Your god doesn't love me
And I can't breathe