Lil Xtra - Cry While We’re Laughing lyrics

First date 2am and again I'm
Wondering if this is even real? What is this
She's, super cool and she's into all this
Weird shit that I love
That no one ever is but
I can tell she's a sad one
But she the kind of girl that wouldn't
Cry to dad if she had one
Grew up rough on some tough love, hit's 18
And there really ain't nobody
Else to speak of
And now she's rolling with a reject
And I know my time's short but
She doesn't want to leave yet
Roll it up, hit the porch and of course
When the smoke clears out
All we really have are regrets
All we ever had were secrets
And I don't know about a hole in my defense
It's all good let's dispense
With the pretense
You don't gotta say it girl
I know that you're leaving


'Cause I don't believe it when
You say that you're happy how could you be
When you cry all the time?
Maybe one day we'll learn
To cry while we're laughing
So maybe we won't
Have to get high all the time all the time


First things first
I'm the worst and you know that
Just your birthday curse, that's a throwback
Yeah, I ruin everything and you know that
I'm the saddest motherfucker on this
Earth like I'm Bojack
Black lungs, white sky, oh why can't
I just be free without a Vyvanse?
When I ask for love I get silence
As you go and hide behind eyelids
Just go to sleep, I'll be right back
Don't you know that you're all I have
"Just breathe" she says, it's not that bad
You know I hate when you talk like that
Let me break and I'll be done
I know you hate what I've become
With everything that I've been through
I just can't be what you want me to


'Cause I don't believe it when
You say that you're happy how could you be
When you cry all the time?
Maybe one day we'll learn
To cry while we're laughing
So maybe we won't
Have to get high all the time all the time


Why are you high all the time?
Why are you high all the time?


Ayy yeah, turns out that I'm a problem
Unsolvable
Nausea from the toxins, the bad son prodigal
But now I'm reaching for
Top it's improbable the way I got here be
Turning thoughts into audibles
Turning art into an audience
Against my haters judgement and against
My own common sense
But now I'm getting played
In all the provinces
'Cause every time I hop up on
The beat I fucking body it



'Cause I don't believe it
When you say that you're happy
How could you be when you cry all the time?
Maybe one day
We'll learn to cry while we're laughing
So maybe we won't
Have to get high all the time
High all the time
'Cause I don't believe it when
You say that you're happy how could you be
When you cry all the time?
Maybe one day we'll learn
To cry while we're laughing
So maybe we won't
Have to get high all the time
Why are you high all the time?