Lil Xtra - Deathwish lyrics

Once upon a long long time ago
I used to have these dreams I thought
One day I'd find some purpose
Over time I've realized I am not
Conquering the things I fear
Capable of breaking through
Lost the things I once held dear
I don't know what the fuck to do

Left beliefs that once defined me
My best days are long behind me
Half the time I'm breathing in
I'm dreaming of the day I finally stop
Check my feelings at the door
I don't know what I'm fighting for
I used to pray that things would change
But now I'm well aware they're not


Cause I used to say
Everything will be alright
But it never will be so I stay in my bed
And I hate when you call
And say you should come out tonight
I just bought an ounce
I'm gonna smoke it instead yeah


Stop fucking telling me I'm fine
I hate the way you keep your cool
I'm aware you're always right
Go on and play me for the fool
Take the blood out of my veins
Go on do your worst to me
I wouldn't wish this type of pain
On my own worst enemy

Lay in bed but never sleep
I tried to fight but I'm too weak
And everytime I try to speak
I end up drunk and sobbing on the floor
Heared you're doing better now
It makes it worse I don't know how
The world keeps turning I can't breath
I just can't do this anymore


Cause I used to say
Everything will be alright
But it never will be so I stay in my bed
And I hate when you call
And say you should come out tonight
I just bought an ounce
I'm gonna smoke it instead yeah

I used to pray that
Everything would be alright
But nothing could hear me
Cause there's nothing nothing at all

Cause I used to say
Everything will be alright
But it never will be so I stay in my bed
And I hate when you call
And say you should come out tonight
I just bought an ounce
I'm gonna smoke it instead

I used to pray everything would be alright
But it never will be so I stay in my bed
And I won't take your call
I'm not going out tonight
I'll never be alright i wish I was dead
Yeah

I used to pray that
Everything would be alright
But it never will be i wish I
Wish I was dead