Lil Xtra - Different lyrics

Yo, I'm doomed to a life of 725
No point living right won’t make it out alive
Making plays downtown
Let me sleep on the drive
Leaning from the fucking codeine in my sprite
Leaning on the hollows in
His fucking four-five like
Put it to my head and we'll see if I can fly
He don't really care if
I’m impaired just stares, says
"What the fuck is up
Bruh you really want to die?"
Yeah, I've been blessed with a death wish
I just hope that I die
Young and high like Hedwig
I've been too distressed to address this
But I know I can't be the
Only one who feels helpless
And I'm sorry that I've been so selfish
I'd change if I could
But I just can't help it
But I know who I am, no need to pretend
Guess I’m I’m still fucked up
And let down again


'Cause I’ve been feeling down
Can't wait until it passes
I kept your picture underneath my mattress
Can't see the sky to find my own position
I know it isn't working
I know that something’s different

I know I'm fucking different


Yo, why the world gotta be like this?
Getting high and she tells me
What her stepdad did
I keep the secret so she can pretend
That her innocence hasn't been
Lost in a sense
So we go to the mall and buy some bullshit
To block out how fucked up it all is
I just need a whip with the gold plate rims
I just need a pill to feel happiness
I just need a check and some ice I can flex
A few more drugs to feel a little less
A few more hit's and a girl that's obsessed
That loves all my shit and loves having sex
So I can pretend everything's okay
But the world's so black and I'm so grey
I hope in the end one day I'll say
I see the same old world in a brand new way


'Cause I've been feeling down can't
Wait until it passes
I hope you keep me underneath your mattress
Still too blind to see my own condition
I know I can't be perfect
I know that something's missing

'Cause I've been feeling down
Can't wait until it passes
I kept your picture, underneath my mattress
I can't see the sky, to find my own position
I know it isn't working
I know that something's different

I hope I'm always different, different
I hope I'm always different, different

I hope i hope
I hope i hope I'm always different