Russ - I Love You Boy lyrics

I love you more than before
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
I love you more than before
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

Yeah

You grew up in a environment that
Was hostile and got wild
Arguments you heard as a small
Child had an effect
That left you with a lot to undo
Your first words was screamin'
At your mom sayin', "Fuck you"
Imagine the visual, diaper on
Already dealin' with the residual
Effects of an explosive father
Figure was difficult
Mama was miserable, his love fеlt conditional
You better be pеrfect
Otherwise he'll be hypocritical
Belittle you 'til you nothin', yeah
Hurts to listen neither parent knew how to
Regulate the nervous system
Dad was reactive, mom was fatalistic
No one to protect you
Grandfather paid a visit
To take you and your siblings
And your mama far away
Twenty-nine years later
She regrets that she stayed
You were doomed from the start
You were hurt and ostracized
There's a wound in your heart, survival mode
You traumatized (For real)

I love you more (I love you)
Than before
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
I love you more
Than before
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah (Yeah)

The monster you created to protect the kid
In you is hard to manage
Supreme confidence, deep cripplin' insecurity
The damage that's been done is explicit
And abusive and a critic
Nothin' that you ever do
Is really good enough, is it?
You didn't get validation from your dad
So you replaced him with the
Industry and started to rap
You wanted praise and acknowledgement and
Picked a profession that
People who look like you don't get
Now the range of accomplishments
Bein' ignored, authoritative outside force
That you, yet again, apparently
Aren't good enough for all fueled you
Your need to be liked and
Feel wanted consumed you
That's why you call a chick every
Night to come do you
Only to be left feelin' less than before
Didn't have the tools to manage stress
You at war with yourself, you need love
Drinkin' to forget that bein'
You is not enough
Overcompensatin' in interviews
Tryna prove that you right
Maybe then you'll be liked
Tryna prove you're worthy of approval you
Weren't shown in your home
I'm sorry that I ever left you all alone

I love you more (I'm sorry)
Than before
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
I love you more
Than before
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah (Yeah)

You deserve a pat on the back
And a round of applause
The sound of this song makes
You think I'm not proud, but you wrong
Look how far you took
It, international bookings
You gave your family a cushion
And through the hate, you kept pushin'
Knew you had people lookin' up to you
You held your composure
As hell moved close to you, you a soldier
It's a shock that you were ever sober
I never told you how I feel, I apologize
Lot of guys would've folded
I guess I'm not surprised
You prophesized this from the get go
Anything you wanted
Went and got it 'cause you said so
Packs of women fightin' over
You like Shevchenko
Seven figure checks, private jets
Your best friends know your character
You proved that by sharin' your
Successes and blessings, but when you hurt
We hurt
Breakdowns mean that it's time for a rebirth
So you carried me as far as you could go
Now it's time to say goodbye, before
I leave, you should know though, yeah

I love you more
Than before
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
I love you more
Than before
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah