Chonny Jash - A devil’s tricks. lyrics

(Did you think I'd ever leave?
Did you think that you would
Just fall to complacency?
Did you think that you ever held any agency?
Did you think that I would
Fall so gracelessly?)

My mind's playing tricks on me
It keeps on showing me the things
That I could've been
Like someone who adores duality
(Do you hear me?)
Instead I just sit and practice apathy

My mind's playing tricks on me
Bringing into question the
Definition of sanity
And what really constitutes as agony
(Do you fear me?)
My coping mechanisms keep on failing me

I've kept myself at bay for so damn long
(You're not strong)
So now I think it's time
For the devil's song

My mind's playing tricks on me
It keeps on showing me the things
That I could've been
Like someone who adores duality
(Do you hear me?)
Instead I just sit and practice apathy

My mind's playing tricks on me
Bringing into question the
Definition of sanity
And what really constitutes as agony
(Do you fear me?)
My coping mechanisms keep on failing me

I remember one short line
It went: "one will turn to two
Will turn to five" it seems I always knew
That they would multiply (JUST DIE)
So why do I insist on keeping up these lies?

Yeah don't put your trust in me
And don't confuse my blinding
Weakness for gallantry
The truth is everything I do is cowardly
(you will bleed)
Stuck behind a thin veneer of neutrality

Why do I lock myself inside my mind
(WITHOUT PRIDE)
When that's exactly where these
Bad thoughts hide? (JUST DIE)
Why do I keep on lying
When deep down I know that this isn't right?
A good devil masquerades out in the light

Please cease this feeling disease
This agony feels so clearly please
Don't fear me please it' stinging
Please it's killing me reach
Dry heaving creeps

Sincerely i wish I could forget all about it
But I know that the evil
Inside's what's keeping me grounded
It's killing me to know that
My heart is in two
But my anger won't subside if I
Keep pretending I hate you

My mind won't heal if you're not real
This pain I feel can't be concealed
The truth in me will be revealed

And so, I yield