Chonny Jash - Special lyrics

Generally, I'm a modest guy
I've eaten my share of humble pie
Sometimes that's delicious
But I do have wishes
To swim with the biggest of bigger fishes
What would be the point if
We were all the same?
Life would be an abject, hackneyed game
(I pledged to play no part in that abject
Hackneyed game)
No frame of reference for pleasure
When there's no pain
I'd rather not refrain
I'd rather not abstain
Do you believe I'm special?
Would you agree I'm special?
How could I be so special?
Do I believe I'm special?

I'm not afraid to be cast aside
Invisible guys don't need to hide
The struggle is real, but what's the deal
When folk feel like they need
To have the most appeal?
I remember practicing most weekends
At the expense of spending
Joyful time with friends
Imagining that it would yield
The best rewards
Not four repeating hip-hop, doo-wop chords

Do you believe I'm special?
Would you agree I'm special?
How could I be so special?
Do I believe I'm special?

Mom always told me that I was one of a kind
But as I got older and wise
That sentiment began to weigh on my mind
What makes me different from all
Of the others dreaming?
I can't seem to recall the
Reason that I'm worth redeeming
I say indifference is bliss so
When I inevitably miss
This dissonance that I'm listening in
Suspends my solipsistic senses a
Little bit less makes my hurt less intense
If you claim it's how you planned it
You don't have to make amends
But I'm not stupid
I know when it's lies that I tell
If there's one person in this world that
I can't trick then it's myself
I suppose it's just the problem
With trying to be self-aware:
You don't need a mirror to see
The misery in your stare
But I see through this senseless entropy
These maladies made a man of me
This blade the Dionysius insidiously
Insisted on Damocles
Is one that bodes an omen of
Darkness or so they tell
Without giving us a chance to see
The hand in which it's held

And anyway, who am I to fret like this?
Maybe a key change can pull
Me out of this abyss

Sooner or later I shall find myself
And make amends with the me left on the shelf
In a jam session and lesson
Taught of love and sin
Until we finally find that great
Resounding din
So maybe I'm unique and maybe not
But I might as well deliver all I've got

Do you believe I'm special?
Would you agree I'm special?
How could I be so special?
Do I believe I'm special?

Do you believe I'm (we're) special?
(You know we've been to this scene
An aboriginal meme)
(Join if you keep it coming back
And coming back)
Would you agree I'm (we're) special?
(Had a smotherful mother full
Of meddle and steam) (And coming back
Why don't we keep it coming back?)
How could I (we) be so special?
(Can't believe what we've seen
Won't be burned to the ground)
(And coming back)
Do I (we) believe I'm (we're) special?
(Though we make ourselves castles
Every tide we're around) (Join if you)

Oh, live the dream
(Do you like how I walk? Do
You like how I talk?)
(Keep it coming back, and coming back)
In a time machine
You've been waiting forever
(Do you like how my face has
Learned to tick like a clock?)
(And coming back
Why don't we keep it coming back?)
Oh, live the dream (I have a wonderful life
I know a powerful Bob (Todd) )
(And coming back) in a time machine
You've been waiting forever
(He eulogizes me for being geocentric)
(Ha ha ha ha)
(Join if you want it coming back)