Foxes in Fiction - Say Yes To Violence lyrics

Better selves I could organize
I just wanna look strong
If I become who I pretend to be
Who have I been all along?
A mild mannered Canadian
 useless in our passiveness
Apologies for the northern shame
Kill with gentleness

Message came from the other side
"say yes to violence"
There's a voice buried in the waves
Keeps begging me to swim
Moving fast to get out in front and
Wash the night out of the cloth
And tell you how I got the
Scar as blood fills my mouth

Hard to understand why
Half of me, it wants to be enveloped
Clouded in my vital signs, a second sight
Burning out
I'm pushing back on the fading light

Losing trust here on the ledge
I know what it could steal
I’m giving in to indifference
Telling fantasy from real
Try to make new memory
The lens blurred I tried to rush
And felt the sweat sink through the bed
The night I said too much

Hard to understand why
Half of me, it wants to be enveloped
Clouded in my vital signs, a second sight
Burning out
I'm pushing back on the fading light