KSG-15 - Still Feel the Past lyrics

Looking at my past thinking
How it all started
Makes me feel retarted
I should knock it off got it
But Ever since in college with
The words that I've jotted
I've been stuck in same place
Like blood that is clotted

Wish I never thought it this way
But I gotta say it though
I could never imagine rap game killing me
Breaking me should have i played it slow?
Did everything but I didn't make it so
Gave me an L, and I take it yo
Even with these thoughts
Man why can I not let it go?

What the fuck is wrong with me
What is going on with me
I guess I was born with this
Hеad full of storm n shit
Even if I'm torn in bits
I will just go on with it
I'll never movе on with this
I'm the one who's wrong in this

Confusion made me who I am
Lost in the friction
Had choice to walk away
But I chose addiction
If I don't control myself
Situations would worsen
Fuck being a good rapper
Wish I was a good person

Even if we hate it, we fell in that place
Went so deep we never made it back yet
First suicidal thought wouldn't be the last
Everyday begins, we still feel the past

I miss the times spent
In rain with cigarettes
Brain full of nothing but pain and regrets
Hole in my heart couldn't get any bigger yet
You know nothing 'bout my life
Don't paint the picture yet

Hell if I've figured my own life
I've been a no life
Playing games anything any time
Mostly just csgo type
I Wasn't even good no lie
Wasted time, don't know why
Anti social So shy
Suicidal, got my rope tied (haha)

Spent time on things and
People that never mattered
Ate off life full of lie
That just made me fatter
Never had any dreams so can't
Say that they shattered
Sometimes I question myself am
I even a rapper?

Guess it's time for me to
Focus on my responsibilities
Finish this College with all my capabilities
Take care of my relationships
With friends and family
I had fun since the beginning
Now I end this happily

Even if we hate it, we fell in that place
Went so deep we never made it back yet
First suicidal thought wouldn't be the last
Everyday begins, we still feel the past