Polearm - keep a secret lyrics

Not really sure if i need you
I'm still looking around for a substance
Every time that I see you
You’re walking around like he doesn’t
I try so hard not to act like i’m above it
Please don’t call me you’re soulmate
'cause in the end
He wasn’t

Can you keep a secret?
They won’t ever have to know it
If you don’t repeat it
I’m not the one to show you
Everything that you’ve been dreamin'
I’m not present
But I’m sick of staring at the ceiling

Keep your feelings
I’ve been feeling lonely
And every time, I ask myself
“But does she even know me"
I could try and write a song
But it can’t ever hold me
And if you could take it back
You’d still say what you told me

As if there’s something to feel

I’m swearing as soon as you opened the
Door was the moment you had me
As badly as I wanna be in love, I can’t be
The role that I know that I only
Can play is the hopeless romantic
But the way you come onto me is
Honestly sending me into a panic

Stop asking me how I’ve been doing
It’s all in the music
Lately, I don’t feel like it’s my life
How did it come to this?
Don’t know how much longer I’ll do this
It’s been so hard by myself but at
Least I won’t ever stop trying
Can’t say that I haven’t been crying
Can’t say I don’t think about dying