Polearm - ​​portland lyrics

Feeling like I'm six feet under
Better ring the bell

It's just another thing you didn't mention
I guess that was enough to feel
Out our connection
You can't ever tell me what it's
Like to be a loner
I just wish that I could say that it's over
Far away from perfect, you know I'm no angel
I'll be what you need
Just show me everything that's painful
I don't have a purpose
I just watch the days go
You can waste your time again
But I can't ever stay though

I guess I just didn't excite you
I guess you don't want me beside you
All the worst ways that I see myself
Thеy come true
And I can't do this if
It's gonna be without you
Just lеt me stay with you in Portland
Take me to the forest
Forget 'bout your boyfriend
Ask me what is wrong
I'll always lie and say it's nothing
I just can't relax for you
I know it's always something
It's always something

I feel less hungry on my stomach
Toss and turn, there's nothing left to burn
I put out the match
The shadows start to turn
Forgot my fucking question when
I got my answer
There's nothing there for me
And I've been crying in the shower
No one's hearing me
When you burn inside
There's nothing there to snuff it
Take a grain of salt 'cause
I can tell you're bluffin'

I guess I just didn't excite you
I guess you don't want me beside you
All the worst ways that I see myself
They come true
And I can't do this if
It's gonna be without you
Just let me stay with you in Portland
Take me to the forest
Forget 'bout your boyfriend
Ask me what is wrong
I'll always lie and say it's nothing
I just can't relax for you
I know it's always something
It's always something

What came first, the music or the misery?